Mothers can make mistakes …. big mistakes
Date posted: February 1, 2010
Hope this email finds you well.
I’ve been reading your articles, and am reading your book now and I was admire the way you answer people’s questions, and I very much respect your way of thinking.
I’ll try to be short, I’m from a “somehow” financially stable family, we’ve been living in one of the countries in the Gulf area as my mom and dad worked there, anyway we came to egypt in the 90s with only my mom and my dad stayed there to support the family as he works there.
I was maybe 9 or 10 years old, I used to sleep with my mom in the same room and bed while my dad was away, and my brothers slept in the next room, they were mostly out anyways.
I used to go with my mom to the office when i didnt have school, there was this man that started to appear in her life, she introduced him to me as an old friend, but he started coming to the office everyday ta2reban provided she worked in that office alone so it was mostly her and me there, I hated that guy to the core, I couldnt stand the thought of him even talking to my mom.
All I have of this period is this sort of flash backs that I get when I think about it, mostly him talking to my mom and me hating that, them talking on the phone late at night, I used to beg her to hang up and play with me or even tell me a story to sleep, anyway one night I was in the other room and she was on the phone with him, ah I forgot to tell u i used to hear his voice through the phone as I lie beside her and when I asked who are u talking to she would say any girl friend’s name :s
so that night I heard her “now i know the meaning of what she’s doing” she was moaning on the phone as if she’s having (phone u know what) at the time I didn’t understand and I ran to her room worried she’s hurt or something I kept asking what’s wrong, she said all is fine I was just talking to Tant folana and she was telling me a bad story I just felt bad for her.
I am 24 now and I keep thinking about every single flashback I had and am sure they all are true ya Marwa ana msh magnoona, even that what kind of sick imagination for a child would make up the moaning this m3 en ana at that time I didnt even know what that was!!
I need your help coz I dunno if am crazy or what? also I feel I have this hate for her that I kept shutting off all those years on top of that I feel betrayed ya Marwa, I duno y I feel like she had betrayed me by having this relationship
am i sick and twisted wala maaly? and how am i supposed to feel about her!
ana asfa tawelt,
thnx in advance