Hello ya Marwa ….Thanks for your help …am very grateful…..I want to update you about that person i was telling you about ….At April 14(which is the end of the emtiaz where we wont be able to contact unless there is some form of commitment), he actually opened up and started talking about his future plans and his actual circumstances…
He also explained to me why he was delaying this step ….The answer was that he wanted to be on a strong stable ground where he is setteled in a job and knows how’s his career is going to be like..A week later ,he got a job in one of those Military Hospitals and things started to get a bit weird… Marwa , i just want to tell you something about myself…am the type of the person who is very very very caring ,I like to take good care of all the people around me and to be taken care of, to pamper and to be pampered, i believe it creates this warm atmosphere which i love…
And coz people are different he’s not the same……….I know he works in a military hospital ,where they have lots of restriction even mobile phones are banned unless they are on a break or not ” on call “…..they dont even have a proper schedual up to this day….it depends on the flow of the patients …………………….
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We may end up not talking for 2 days or more..and the day that he calls it won’t exceed more than 4 minuntes….I really feel lonely as if am not commited in a relationship……and i have told him about how i feel & he ‘d respond for 1 or 2 days…. and thats it….I told him your not a romantic person …i even told him that you dont Love me ..coz i believe that a person who’s in love would be desperate to keep in touch with person who loves…
and am not going to tell him how to figure out a way to do it………What really annoyes me that i ‘ve got this feeling that he was commited just because am a good person (a kind, understanding human being that would take good care of him) not coz he loves mee…..and i know i got this feeling when said to me “am a chance he shouldn’t let go”…
And i thought i should be honest and tell him about how i feel…. he kept on joking and denying and telling me all those execuses….. Up to this day ,i don’t know what’s on his mind,what is planning for us and i find it very hard to ask…….and I try to escape every chance yekoon fe 3arees ha yet2ademli and i don’t tell Him and i won’t ….coz that would be very humilating to me………………..in general , he’s a good person and he is nerdy workaholic….
BUT WHAT AM REALLY SCARED OF IS THAT HE’D BE THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO’D KNOWS TO TAKE CARE ONLY OF HIMSELF AND NO ONE ELSE………………….
