My first ex whom I was with for 4 years, left me after telling me he will meet my parents, and asking me to prelude the way for them, he emailed me in the same day he was coming that he didnt want us to be together anymore, i got over him and I knew he wasnt mature enough to face or confront
my second, told me he likes me very much and then asked me for time to "think" about getting serious (which is something he offered not me) and then i havent heard of him again
my third, he knew about that, he healed me and he understood me, the only promise he made that he will never ignore or leave me that way (specially that he knows that am a very open minded and i can take anything as long as it presents in a grownup way) and guess what? he did the same, one day we were together the next he's ignoring me completely, I tried sending an email telling him that i dont feel ok and i was all supporting and understanding and told him if he's having a rough patch i can be patient, and all am asking him was to talk to me, and he kept on ignoring me, then i get the msg, and i was so angry that i txted him to break up 2al heya gat mn 3andi, cause i couldnt take it for the third time, and again, he kept on ignoring
i keep telling myself that am worthy that i deserve better but hell that all just utter bullshit, I am not, and there is no better, no body even care to say goodbye. and its not about them leaving cause i can take that, what i cant take is disrespecting me that way, is ignoring me the same way, everyfreakingtime, without having fights without making excuses without any apparent reasons, of course there are reasons, and i wish i knew to fix them!
tell me how can i ever trust anyone again, or have any faith, or how can i feel safe or worthy again, this is so brutal
