heeey marwa..well its a long story..abt a year ago met this girl in uni..i was attracted to her..she’s a year younger than me..anywayi got to knw her thru a common friend.. when i knew her she was having a hard time n had just gone out of her 1st relationship with someone who cheated on her n stuff like that..anyway when she knew me n started talkin to me she kinda felt comfortable talking n telling me abt everything.. everything went fine for nearly a year..our families ,friends n everyone knew abt it n everyone was soo happy for us..
she never complained abt anything..n she never spoke to anyone abt anything personal between us cuz she thought ppl wud just spoil things..anyway..the problem was she was a rlyy kind person n everything but she was a veryy sensitive person..n the most impoertant thing to her was like telling her i love her all the time..calling her a million times a day,,n stuff like that :S n suddenly ..she changed n started to be a completely different person..n said im doing this cuz u dont care enuf …
the thing was im in engineering n uni is rlyyy hard..we hardly had any days off except friday last year..my dad went abroad in the middle of the year n i had alooot of responsibilities at home too..when i finished the academic year.. i got an internship for 2 continious months n for the second month i worked on call at night..i swear.wnvr i wud find anytime to c her i wud leave everything n go to her..i called her when i can i loved her soooo much n did all i cud to make her happy..n she never told me anthing that she was annoyed n all that..but the only thing that wud take me away frm her was either..work..studying..home responisbilities..she had a much easier life..
she ahd 4 days off a week..she didnt work like i did n all she wanted was to c me..go out…talk on the phone..i looked at things from a differnet way..that we both shud be mature n responsible.. another thing if i went away for a weekend with my mum she wud say ur leaving me n going away..:S if anything happened n i cudnt call her ..she cud tell me its a 6 pm an u still havent called me:S?,,,stuff like that made her upset althu…it was all out of my hands i swear…the thing is..her parents are divorced,,n she lives with her mum n little sister..so she talks to noone except her mum..her mum since we were together fromthe begining wud tell her stuff like..does he call u enuf’?? if he doenst that means he doesnt care n wud just throw u away later on..if i wud go away she wud tell her…is he always away n leaving u here alone??
so i realised at the end that she was piling up little sitautions like that till she finally convinced herself that i dont care abt her..i tried my best to show her i did.. n i told her im sorry althu i did nth wrong..she wants me next 2 her 24 hours a day..but i had alooot of other responisbilities..of course i wud love to be with her 24 hours a day..but i cudnt..i told her it was just a hard time cuz i had rainng n wa sbusy n all that n that things will get better now as work is over,,n that we wud have sooo much more time 2 spend together..n that she’ll realise the change..she just cudnt..n for like 45 days..she started 2 rlly do things to hurt me as if she was taking revenge..she felt as if i was gonna be with someone who didnt care abt me n was gonna just throw me away in the end..i tried EVERYTHing.. but nth worked out in the end..
she wud always tell me if i leave her she wud like die or sth..n i was careful not to hurt her ..n wud have NEVER left her..i wud tell myself..even if sth bad in her i wud know..i wud try 2 change it,,,but never leave her,,thats not an option…i care abt her soooooo much n i had sooo much hopes for usn was shcoked after all that she wud do that to me..she became a completely diff person in the end n changed ..i was shocked …when i tried everything to make her undertsand i did care she just told me i dont want this anymore..till we went to a dead end..i gave her a present n told her im sorryy n if thats what u want,,its ok,,but im here wnvr u need me..
n ill always be ur friend..i was shocked then n expected that she wud even feel bad abt it..but weve been 3 months now..i cant get over her..she gave no reaction n moved on as if i never existed..i c her in uni,,if we meet face 2 face we say hi n everything but u know its all acting..i try u seem as if im ober her..i dont act ahppy or show im hurt or uoset..althu it kills me inside..i just cant believe that the person standing infront of me was one day the closest person to me..n know after we have all that between us n all the times we spent..i jyst say hi as if i never knew her..it rlyy hurts inside..n if i try n talk 2 her again..she’d just do anything to hurt me again si i kinda gave up..i dunno what to di..cuz i rlyyy did love her n she was everything to me…n im shocked how she seems to have moved on so easily..i dunno if maybe she feels the same or not but i dont think so..she hasnt even called me since we broke up ..she’s just any normal person i knw now..i dunno what to doo..
